Well on Tuesday I went to Bryan's and we had a little fun. His parents werent home so it was all good. First we were on his bed.  We were making out then, came off my pants, he was fingering me and eating me out, hehe. then lets see, more making out. Then comes off his shirt and my pants. Then i was feeling him and then I gave him a nice long hand job. It took 53 minutes for him to cum. yeah pretty long time, then he made my hole really big so i palayed with it, hehe, yeah it was fun. Then yeah he finally cummed. oh yeah i used victoria secret lotion for luburcation hehe smells good. yeah hen i wiped him cum on his face it was funny. afterwards we toook a shower together and he washed me.

Then yesterday he was fingering me and it was so great I loved it I was breathing really hard cause it was so great and yeah I was late to work cause of it.

Then yeah today I told sarah about it and I think bryan is mad cause yeah he said in his text to me that he talked to Sarah uh oh, I know he doesnt want people to know but you know I really like him and it is exciting to tell people I love him and so yeah, I am not  going to lie to everyone, i cant do that. And plus i gave him my first hand job ever so it is exciting yeah so, i am scared he is mad at me, cause he said, yeah and tommorow I am going to six flags. SO yeah I guess he is probably mad. but i hope he isnt cause then I would be really sad. I would be, it would be terrible, but yeah I dont know. I think I love him I really do, I always want to say it but I cant I really want to though. I wish he loved me, but he doesnt probably the way I do. Man but I really want him , man do I. I am shaking cause I am really nervous of what he is going to say to me on the phone or if he will even clal cause he is mad. Man I am going to be sad and cry, but I love him so much it is crazy. My lip is quivering, ahh, I am scared. =(... Help me help me. God what am I to do. I really want him so bad it is crazy.  I love him so much!