SO yeah I laid down and he played PS2 and then we watched tv. Then we had to go to his show later on and I wanted to drive with him alone but we had to take Jon and Nick with us cause they are in the band too. Yeah well the ride was very quite. And to refresh, me and Bryan arent going out. WE once did , but he wasnt ready yet and then we were friends with benifits and then just best friends and we decided to be best friends with benifits now. I thought it would make him want to go out, I dunno Sarah keeps telling me that I am going to get hurt even more cause I love him so much. and I know she is right but , I just keep thinking that maybe it will turn into something more. I mean we talk like 50 times a day and we see each other alot and when we are ALONE he acts like we are going out or whatever, but I know we arent I just wish we were =(... That is all I want, here this was in one of the emails he sent me:
I hope that after we talked, we get along much more better than we did before. I care abouts you lots and all of my friends. I'm sorry that I decided for you to be my best friend than my girlfriend. I think it's the right way for me the both of us. I'd rather have a best friend who will always be there for me when I need her the most rather than have a girlfriend whom I might lose. You can always get a new BF/GF; but you can't always get a new best friend.
Lot's-O-Love,
Bryan
That was on July 21, so awhile ago, it is so weird though, man I hate this. Yeah well back to the show. Yeah me and Bryan and Nick went to Burger King, and there was this girl there that Bryan thought was so hot I guess, he owuldnt shut up about her he was just being so stupid. He was just doing it cause Nick was there though. GRRr, I was getting so pissed off. Man I just couldnt take it, I cant take such things from the guy I feel in love with. Yeah well she was washing the window and they were like starring at here, and Nick has no clue that me and Bryan have something going on, so he was like ohhh look Bryan she's checking you out, oh look. Grr, so we left and Bryan was like dont touch the windows the girl just cleaned, so me being the jealous type, I licked my hand and ran it down the window, haha that will teach that girl well not really but I though it was good. Then in the car Nick was like Katie you took Bryan away from true love, grr that was the end.
yeah welll then I was kinda pissed in the car so I wanted ice cream so we went across the street to get ice cream. I went in by myself and then came bax kout cause I decided I didnt want to spend money, But Bryan trying to joke around locked the doors. SO I walked off and then came back and tried the door again but still lock so I walked off even further and yeah I didnt come back for like 20 minutes and I knew they had a concert to play. I was just like you can walk you know grrr I was so pissed. I was going to let the Burger King slide but that door thing just mad me so mad. WEll I got back in the car and I didnt say anything and then we got back to the park and we saw that their band was setting up their stufff to play so Nick ran over to them but Bryan stayed in the car with me cause I was pissed and he was like whats wrong and stuff and I started crying and he was like I love you so much Katie , I love you so much and I was crying and yeah I told him to go get ready. SO he finally left , and I wiped away my tears and then went to go see him play. Yeaah well after they palyed Bryan looked real mad so he went and sat at a bench and I was going to go talk to him and apologize for being stupid. But Sarah went over to him so I was mad and went and sat in my car, and waited until she left. Then when I got up to go talk to him he was gone so I went and sat on the bench and then 10 mins later he came there and sat down and we sat together in silence. I was sad cause I wanted to apologize but I couldnt do it right then, It just wasnt the moment. I had it all planned out what I was going to do. but it wasnt the right time.
Later he told me he was pissed cause he said his band palyed bad, so i guess he was saying he wasnt mad at me. Hmmm, well I left him on the bench and I went and sat in my car. Yeah I sent him and text message saying " I am sorry for messing everything up" and then I sent one that said " I just could help falling in love with you" I was watching him to see what his reaction would be but he didnt get in for awhile and when he did I couldnt really see him so I went to the bathroom and while I was gone he sat in my car. and I got in next to him and we sat there in some more silence. Then he asked me what was wrong earlier and me being dumb I said nothing and then SArah and all the guys waled to the car cause we were getting ready to leave so BRyan said we would talk later.
Yeah so It was another boring quiet ride home. WEll then we got there and me and BRyan drove to his house and he held my hand and asked me what was wrong earlier and I said I felt bad for being stupid and he said I wasnt stupid and I said I was and he said I wanst so we left it at that. Yeah got to his house and we went to his room he kissed me a little like light but nothing then I said it was hot in the room and he was like yeah cause you are in here so I told him to shut up. yeah we had to go pick up Janet from SAfarri Land which is like 30 mins from his house so on the drive we held hands again and i licked his fingers cause he likes that and then picked up Janet and then drove back to his house to drop him off. Well on the was back Janet was compalining and I swear if I wasnt arounf He would so like Janet and before he liked me he liked her, but he was just so nice or whatever to her, grr. Yeah well in front of people he doesnt hold my hand but I was kinda sad looking os he held my hand and when we got to his house he gave me a hug and ran to his house to get us pepsi, and then I went and sat against his fence and then he came and pcicked me up and kissed me and then I got in my car and he hugged me and kissed my neck and then he went around to Janets side and gave her a big hug and told her everything that was wrong with her was going to be alright. . GRr, yeah well so me and Janet talked on the way home . I found out lots of stuff about her. Quite a slut I would say, I love her and all but she is a little whore, man she has made out with like 6 guys since 2 weeks. yeah and she doesnt want a relationship and that is like BRyan well they would be good for each other but I am in the way so that is not happening.
Well on the way home bryan texted me to see if I got in trouble for being so late home, i didnt though. then i called him after i dropped Janet off and we talked til i got home and saw that all the ligths were on and so I thought I was going to be in trouble but I didnt so I called him back later ,and that is when he told me all the times he got excited hehe. yeah well we talked for awhile and I wanted to go to bed. yeah so I did.
Then today he called me on my break and yeah i didnt realy talk thoguh cause I was at work and then he called at like 530 and we talked and I told him to go take a nap cause he was tired but he said he wasnt until I was where I neeed to be, I was going to go pick up Melissa to go see a movie, so he stayed on the phone with me. I talked to him a sec ago and he is calling me baxck cause he is recording an acuostic set. yeah so by the looks of this post , Bryan and I are going now where. Oh wait when I was at his house he kissed my forehead and said dont worry, hmm what I am I not to worry about ? Yeah well I dunno how things are going to end up
bbsk8er24 (2:15:02 AM): Fuck Buddies?
A GooSE LoVER (2:15:12 AM): um yes
bbsk8er24 (2:15:23 AM): ......
A GooSE LoVER (2:15:31 AM): '.............................what?
bbsk8er24 (2:15:47 AM): Fuck Buddies.......?
A GooSE LoVER (2:15:57 AM): Eat you out of bliss
A GooSE LoVER (2:16:02 AM): yes!
bbsk8er24 (2:16:11 AM): FUCK BUDDIES???
A GooSE LoVER (2:16:20 AM): YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bbsk8er24 (2:16:34 AM): yay
A GooSE LoVER (2:16:46 AM): yeah yeah'
bbsk8er24 (2:16:50 AM): yay
bbsk8er24 (2:16:57 AM): so fuck buddies?
A GooSE LoVER (2:17:03 AM): yes alreadt
bbsk8er24 (2:17:11 AM): well not really fucking.....unless
A GooSE LoVER (2:17:19 AM): yes yes
bbsk8er24 (2:17:45 AM): so we fuck buddies?
A GooSE LoVER (2:17:52 AM): yes
bbsk8er24 (2:18:14 AM): what about the fucking part?
A GooSE LoVER (2:18:28 AM): i dunno yet
bbsk8er24 (2:18:36 AM): nor do i
A GooSE LoVER (2:18:52 AM): well goog
A GooSE LoVER (2:18:58 AM): good*
A GooSE LoVER (2:20:00 AM): so.......
bbsk8er24 (2:20:06 AM): yeah
bbsk8er24 (2:20:10 AM): Fuck Buddies
A GooSE LoVER (2:20:13 AM): yep
bbsk8er24 (2:20:23 AM): yay
A GooSE LoVER (2:20:33 AM): is that all u wanted
bbsk8er24 (2:21:16 AM): I don't know... maybe more
bbsk8er24 (2:21:24 AM): y...is that all you wanted?
A GooSE LoVER (2:21:38 AM): no
bbsk8er24 (2:21:48 AM): what else?
A GooSE LoVER (2:21:58 AM): you know already
bbsk8er24 (2:22:13 AM): me too
A GooSE LoVER (2:22:31 AM): yeah well good
bbsk8er24 (2:23:04 AM): it's just that I don't think it's the right time
bbsk8er24 (2:23:06 AM): sorry
A GooSE LoVER (2:23:28 AM): yeah i know and it is ok
bbsk8er24 (2:23:56 AM): :-(
bbsk8er24 (2:24:00 AM): but you know how bad I feel
bbsk8er24 (2:24:05 AM): it's un descibable
A GooSE LoVER (2:24:14 AM): yeah i know
bbsk8er24 (2:24:45 AM): :-(
bbsk8er24 (2:24:46 AM): i'm sorry
A GooSE LoVER (2:25:10 AM): its ok.........
bbsk8er24 (2:25:26 AM): I'm sorry
A GooSE LoVER (2:25:50 AM): dont worry
A GooSE LoVER (2:25:58 AM): its ok tay
bbsk8er24 (2:25:58 AM): but I am okay
bbsk8er24 (2:26:11 AM): I can't stop worrying about the ones I love
bbsk8er24 (2:18:14 AM): it's just that I want you to be my best friend. You're someone I can always count on
he said that too
bbsk8er24 (2:08:33 AM): I know. I didn't really mean what I posted. I have major feelings for you; I care about you, I guess I didn't know how much you cared for me though
Yeah well I am on the phone with him now so I will be back. tommorow