Wednesday went to Bryan's with Sarah, nothing happened cause SArah was there, but later on we were alone, he was on the computer looking up stuff on suicide and depression =(... I hate that he is so sad! I have made him so much worse then what is needed. Then yesterday, we were going to go to Six FLags, but I woke up late. I woke up to him texting me asking me where I was whoops. Yeah so I drove out to his house and we laid in his bed and messes around. Yeah , I made him cum again. I had my period, but he did stuff anyways, hehe, he thought it was pretty gross, but I dont have a problem with it and he admitted he liked it. HaHa. Yeah then when he fingered me, he thought he mgith have cum on hius hands and then he was afraid. he was like" i dont want a baby". yeah well thats what you get and he is the one that wanted to have sex, yeah wahtever. Yeah so about two hours of that and we decided not to go to Six Flags. Oh well , we were going to Gurnee Mills, a huge mall but the traffic was bad, and Bryan slpet most the way. But when I turned around cause of the traffic, so he woke up and he like grabbed on to me, like hugged me and laid on me while I was driving it was kinda cute, but I asked him waht he was doing and he was like" What cant I hug you" hehe I cant argue with that.

Then we went to some other mall and then walked around, He though some girl there was rally hot and told me I should dresss like her, haha no!. Yeah then I was going to get one of those dresses taht look like basketball jerseys but he said that I shouldnt wear that kinda stuff cause I am not black, hah yeah whateever. I would have gotten it but I had not a lot of money. Yeah he was making me mad at the mall.  He was like I don t want a baby and if you get pregant I am going to kill myself. Yeah then he was like I am never going to get married or have kids. Yeah that is what I want to do so whatever.... But he kept saying " I dont want a baby or I am not going to be here anymore". Pishhhh whatever. Yeah so after that we went to Burger King and ate. Then went to Ulta and he liked the girl there and said she was cute, but that didnt really bother me. hmm actually it didnt, I let him pay so he could "talk" to her. Yeah but all day he kept saying all these clothes werent me and then when I wanted to buy make up he was like you dont weat make up . Hmm yeah so we waled around a park and then say down and he was crying . he said he wasnt but he kept sniffling and then I caught him whipping his eyes and I kept asking him what was wrong but he would tell me he kept saying everything was fine. Yeah so on the way to his house I asked him again and he still wouldnt  tell me. Then we sat at his house and he tried to burn me a  cd. Then I had to go so I walked me out side and gave me like 122 hugs and kissed my shoulder over and over again and said he would call in an hour. And he did call and we talked for a long time and I finally made him go to bed cause he was like falling asleep, I think he did a couple times. Yeah so yeah I dont know>.........

  Well whatever I wont seee him til Monday or probably Friday not Monday yeah but he  calls everynight so yeah, I have to go to school grrr. yeah so bye.......